Numb

If this is heart break then it could quite possibly be the worst feeling that I have ever encountered... It could have ended worse... It could have been better... But alas, I only feel the stabbing pain of it... I hope and wish for the best.. But that in itself is to be determined...

Torn

I am torn between what my heart tells me and what my logic tells me. Perhaps it isn't a question of mind over heart but simply a matter of what is the best for me and what isn't. Should I continue or should I stop? Will my continual addiction feed my eventual demise? Will I end up broken in the end?

Suffice to say, far too much has occurred and thus pain is inevitable, but hopefully it will scar less than how it shall feel. I know this much...